| *whimpers* why me? |
[Feb. 27th, 2009|08:21 pm] |
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| | Lollicup's DDR music on the speakers | ] |
( Long, Long Week )
Typed by me while I was half-asleep at Lollicup, edited by Kumi to make it all make sense and spare you the wall of text that was this past week and a half. |
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| and I quote - "there was much sucktitude..." |
[Jan. 13th, 2009|10:46 am] |
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| [ | Current Location |
| | my work desk | ] |
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| |  aggravated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | 'Til I See You Again by Jim Brickman | ] |
Using my computer at Lollicup was a mistake and then some. Apparently using the free wifi there allowed something to lodge itself into my computer and now my computer sends out some sort of signal for various junk and crap websites to pull up every 5 to 10 minutes - I know that it's somehow coming from my computer, b/c it tries to do it while it's off-line too.
On another note I had to attend an IEP meeting for one of my students. I was told at the last minute too - we needed a translator and those people have to be booked way in advance, but I get a call during the class I'm teaching to come down during the next class I teach to sit in on the meeting because a general educator was needed. WTH wasn't I given some advance warning so I could plan for this crap!?
I sometimes think that the only way I could be happy was to become a hermit (hiding somewhere remote in another country...maybe Canada...) and only communicate with my friends via the internet and phone calls. Seriously, why are so many people such goobers?
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| Productive... reproductive? |
[Apr. 18th, 2007|06:07 pm] |
I'm so glad to have actually gotten the chance to read the recent entries to others LJs. There seems to be a lot going on with everyone. I hope everyone is doing well. I am feeling kind of ambiguous about time right now. On the one hand the school year has 5.5 weeks left to it and I'll soon be on summer break. On the other hand, you have fingers... no, wait, that wasn't what I wanted to say. Let's try again shall we? On the other hand, the school year has 5.5 weeks left to it and my kids have the knowledge retention of retarded goldfish! In May my little darlings are expected to take 2 required cumulative tests for assessments in math as well a cumulative final. I am not sure how they are going to do since the overall ability to recall mathematical concepts (including adding and subtracting negative numbers) is practically nil in almost all of my students. This fact kind of depresses me. Oh well, I'll just keep hammering the info into their heads and hope that at least some of it stays lodged in for the remainder of their high school careers.
Of course, I'll expect that I'll see some of them glub-glubbing around once they graduate.
Happy news at GW. We had over 200 people participate in the Day of Silence. Even if the staff all got buttons and participated, we still had at least 100 students join in. It was nice and I'm excited to see how the school club will react to how well-received their activities were by the rest of the school. ^_^
I better get back to work creating another review worksheet for my 9th graders. ~sigh~ |
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| Ooooohhh, shiny! |
[Mar. 22nd, 2007|11:56 am] |
I am an uber dork of nerdy proportions. You would think that with the amount of education I've had that I would not have let my mother's culture influence my actions too badly. Think again. To explain I would have to go way back to my childhood and teenage years. I was pretty shy kid when I was little, and very (very, very) easily distracted, as well as a daydreamer. However, I did well academically, for several reasons. I wanted to do well, I was fairly bright, and my mom scared the crap out of me. Let's jump to the teenage years. I am more outgoing, have lots of energy, in accelerated classes, still easily distracted, and a daydreamer, with the added bonus of being an insomniac and an impulse shopper. Present day, I am an impulse shopper, full of manic energy, have difficulty finishing personal tasks, still easily distracted (just look at the conversations I've had with others), a daydreamer, an insomniac, and the list just goes on. I was tentatively diagnosed by a physician with extremely mild ADD years ago. I went to an MD who specializes in diagnosing this disorder and have just found out I'm actually an extremely severe case of ADHD. I honestly didn't think there was a problem. I ignored the ideas because it was frowned upon by my mother and stigmatized by her culture. I also didn't think I was too far from the norms of society. I became concerned when I noticed that I didn't finish things (in my personal life..I've apparently learned how to cope at work and school - but I work really hard at these). I never seem to finish my laundry or dishes or vacuuming, or organizing or painting, .... I was also concerned because I started journaling religiously to see what was going on with me. When I went back and read what I wrote I was worried because I sounded depressed. So, I scheduled an appointment and voila! This was an extremely long appointment and I had to fill out more than 12 pages of information and rate certain behaviors (I think that they did this for consistency). I also found out that ADHD often causes depression and insomnia.
All I can think is CRAP! I just seem to be hitting everything here. T____T
On a happier note, I had an interview with a middle school in Douglas County on Tuesday and am going in to teach a class on Friday morning in 8th grade science for an evaluation to work for this district. ^____^
I honestly don't know how I'm feeling right now. There are just too many things going on. |
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| buu buu |
[Mar. 16th, 2007|08:32 am] |
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I sit here while students finish their test for period 2, and find them sitting in place with these glazed eyes. Reminds me of a taxidermist's office. My head hurts, my knee hurts, I wonder how long I have left (with my temper and the kids). I swear that if one of them asks me a stupid question about how to do something on a test that they know the skills for one more time....UGH!!! Usually they ask how to do it during the test and not the review or when the assignment is first given. You would think that they would have learned by now that I don't answer questions about the tests, and yet they keep asking.
Not much time left. I'll let you guys know about stuff later. |
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| IT’S ALIVE!!! No. Wait, that’s not right. I’M ALIVE!!!!! |
[Jan. 8th, 2006|07:08 pm] |
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| | Blue Collar Comedy Tour II | ] |
Hello to all my friends in the LJ world. I was gently scolded by Bakudan for not keeping on top of my LJ entries. I promised him that I would update this weekend. Voila! I have kept my promise. Not much detail in this message, but the saga of the dumb ass little brother continues. I know that I shouldn’t be surprised by anything he does, but he always seems to find a way to amaze me yet again with his frickin’ moronic ways. Still love him, but he dries me absolutely batshit nuts.
And now for something completely different. I have an interview at the University of Nebraska Medical College (henceforth to be referred to as UNMC). My interview is on Friday the 13th. As it takes place in Omaha, I have to leave Thursday right after work. I stay at a hotel on Thursday night and then go to the school on Friday. The interview has several different parts and goes from about 10am to 2pm. I then plan to eat, change clothes and begin my journey home, not necessarily in that order. I will hopefully be back late Friday night. I am very, very, very, very happy that this school called me. I know that this is gonna sound weird, but I enjoyed living in Omaha when I was younger.
I may know what I was thinking, but that doesn’t stop me from wondering what the hell I was thinking (somewhere, that made sense). I told my mom about my upcoming interview with UNMC. She insisted that I had to come over for my dad to check out my car. I reallllllly didn't want to do this, because everytime I do this my dad criticizes how I take care of my car. I finally agreed and I was right. The first words out of his mouth were to the effect of how I shouldn't be carrying some stuff in my trunk. I use all of it at least 3 times a week. I got a little pissed. Especially since I had just found out that a friend of mine had died on Friday afternoon. I'm gonna go now and get in touch with some other friends that we both had. |
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| Wahhhhh!!!!! |
[Jan. 20th, 2005|11:18 pm] |
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| | Steps of Maya by Keiko Matsui | ] |
I know I haven't updated this thing in forever and to infinity. I apologize for not staying in touch with my friends. ~sigh~ Unfortunately, things have been kind of hectic.
At the end of September I lost my job due to interior politics. The official reason is attendance. I had only called in sick twice in a 10 month period, so I'm certain that is not the reason. On the plus side, or my vindictive bitchy side, I've heard from 2 reliable sources that many things have gotten worse since this happened, and this is partially due to the fact that my former department is now short-handed and the supervisor can't hire a new person since they got rid of me.
After this I decided to concentrate on my studies. I'm certain everyone heard about the nightmare that was my physics class. This turned out to be worth it. I received an A in Calculus I, and B's in both organic chemistry I and calculus-based physics I. WooHoo!!!
There were a number of bad things that happened during the studying endeavor. However, there were a number of good things. I've made some new friends through study groups that I wasn't able to attend until the job was gone. This group is full of very kind and generous ladies who have been a tremendous help in my academics.
I am currently taking organic chemistry II and calculus II at Red Rocks. I am also enrolled in a Kaplan test prep course to get me ready for the MCAT in April. Needless to say I am very much broke. Hence the lack of katieya sightings.
Most recently, as in this past Saturday, I was involved in car accident. I just noticed that the prior sentence was a bit misleading. On Saturday, I went to the Galleria Tower to take my baseline test for the Kaplan course. I parked my car in the parking lot behind Rubio's, across the street from the tower. Sometime during my test taking someone backed into my car. This known due to the impression of the hitch left in my front bumper. Whoever this unknown bastard was left no info, and there were no witnesses. (And I know karma's a bitch and will bite this guy/gal in the ass really hard someday!!!) I've been dealing with insurance and quotes, etc. for the past week and am expecting an appraiser to come by tomorrow to look at the car. The driver's side headlight is pushed in and down, the hood is bent, the bumper and grill are pushed in, the condenser is pushed back and some other stuff. All in all the front driver's side was hit. Depending on the appraiser's decision, I'll either get some money to repair it or they give me money for the value of my car (roughly $3900) and take my car from me. I'm hoping for the first, because the second won't get me a car that' even remotely as nice as mine will be fixed up. So for now, I wait.... (BTW, my parents were upset at me for this fiasco.)
Good news, I wasn't actually in the car when this happened. I'm certain that I would have been hurt if I had been, and I'm certain the asshole would have still run. No job = No medical insurance = Very unhappy katieya.
I'm actually only looking for part-time work now, due to school. (And yes, I do realize I just jumped from one topic to another and back again...at least I think I did.)
Speaking of school, my mother and I were talking about med school and my possible choices. She is of the opinion that if I have the opportunity to go to a very prestigious one that I should regardless of cost. I actually share this belief, but I think she may have forgotten about several things. I'm going to assume that I do get accepted to some nice ones, arrogant I know. The first issue is the applications. Hopeful med students are encouraged to apply to at least 10 schools. Each school has an application fee, and these range anywhere from $65-$200, on average. Then there is the issue of flying out to interview. Most of the schools I want to go to are on the east coast, although I'm probably taking Harvard off that list (I'll talk about that some more later). Include those costs, as well as hotels for some of them. I'm wondering how she thinks I'm going to afford all this.
About Harvard...the president of Harvard is a bigoted uninformed jackass. The gist of my ire is that at a public speaking event (I read this article in a magazine, but for the life of me I can't remember which one) the president of Harvard said that women were not as smart as men. In the audience one female professor put on her coat and left. The words he used were that there was an "innate" difference in the levels of intelligence between males and females. The man is an affluent, white male with no data to support his statements except for his sexist attitude. If I were a parent I would have been asking for his removal from office. What kind of image is he projecting to the students at that school? I'm certain that I won't be going to that school as long as he is the president. If I find the article I'll post it on here as a link.
It seems that I wrote a lot of angst, but I'm in a fairly mellow mood. I can't control many things, but those that I can I do. (Or at least I try to.)
Well, I should go to bed so I can talk to the appraiser tomorrow. |
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| Wash, Lather, Rinse, and Repeat |
[Jul. 19th, 2004|10:53 pm] |
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I've just confirmed that life is a repition of cycles. Beginning, middle, ending which in turn leads to a beginning and the cycle repeats. This was brought on by the fact that I will be going back to school this upcoming fall. I'm going for a chemical engineering degree at the school of mines, if possible, but that might change. I am supposedly getting help with finances from the parents, but I'm not so sure of that at this time.
My brother's irresponsible behavior pissed off my step-dad, and now the parents are having a fight. This leads to bad moods and a stand off between mom and dad about their respective children. I didn't even do anything, but I get the shaft for it! I'm not really upset about this, my step-dad is just a poopy head.
I'll probably be in school for a solid 2 to 2 1/2 years beginning this fall. This means that I've got to make some sacrifices in my life to get ahead and stay on top of things. Work will get cut down to 20 - 24 hours a week, with some possible tutoring on the side for extra cash. I'll be taking a full load.
Now for the reasoning of going back to school. I am currently at a job that keeps me comfortable and fairly happy. Unfortunately, this is not a job that I see myself really advancing in. I know for a fact that in about 20 years my mother will be moving in with me. It's all a part of my culture. When your parents have aged they are now to be taken care of by you. Generally, Korean culture has the eldest male child taking care of the parents, but I think that if I left my mom with my brother then I would be hearing about a murder on the news. So, I expect to have to take care of my mother, which entails everything. Money for clothes, food, etc. as well as medical needs and vacationing if she feels like it. Duty is not the only reason. I love my mom very, very much, and I want to make sure that her golden years are happy. The yearly income I expect to have in 20 years if I stay at Bonfils will not be adequate. Hell, it won't even come close. So I estimated how much I would need to be making to afford all of the things that will come into my life, without me being a slave to work. I've concluded that I need a beginning yearly income of roughly $65 to $70 thousand (in the next 4 years or so) to make this work. My field of microbiology doesn't offer this. I weighed the options, and decided to go back to school part-time (which would take me about 4 years to complete). My mother found out my plans and offered to help, hence the full-time student status and my enrollment in school to review some subjects at Red Rocks CC for this fall.
Wish me luck in this endeavor! |
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| I'm a bad, bad girl |
[Jun. 22nd, 2004|08:31 pm] |
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I am astonished at the fact that I actually got around to updating this thing.
Not much has been going on with me. My mom and I bought an entertainment center and a dining set for my house. Unfortunately, she wanted to buy it from American Furniture. I've already had issues with them. Anything that requires assembly on the parts of their workers is always crappy. However, if it doesn't need to be put together, then it's fine.
giggling madly... I have no idea why, but my dining set makes me happy. It's a very homey, country thing and best of all... it has ROOSTERS on every single piece! I love it! ^_____^
I already know that someone is either going to shake their head when they read this or laugh their ass off about my plans for this weekend. I'm going to Country Jam USA. Go ahead and laugh. I'm seriously psyched about this! Reba McEntire, Trick Pony, Terry Clark, Brad Paisley, and a bunch of others are going to be performing during these four days!!! Woohoo!!! Unfortunately, I won't be attending DAI because it occurs during the whole weekend.
My brother is running a volleyball skills clinic for Mullen. He coaches a morning session for 2nd to 8th graders and an evening session for high school level. He's enjoying it. He also is applying to work for Enterprise, the car rental business, not the starship.
A-Kon was fun, but I did catch a cold while I was there. Not much else to say, except that I love manga.
I did buy the newest Corrs CD. It rocks! I really want to go to their concert in August.
Work is work. There is a lot of sub groups/ cliques here. That bothers me a bit.
I have been horrendous about working out, but my left knee and foot are giving me problems. (Does anyone know of a way to shape up without impacting my legs too much?)
I also have been working on the house, fixing it up, etc. and that's kept me busy. On the weekend of July 4th I have four consecutive days off, and I intend to use most of the time to repaint the interior of my townhome. Any volunteers to help me with this project? This will be first time I have ever painted inside a house....I'm hoping that I don't completely mess it up. Later in the summer I having the floors redone. Dog hair and a burned hole in the carpet aren't very eye appealing.
I have read others' stuff, but I haven't been able to respond or comment on anything.
Well, I need to get back to work. |
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| Wow, I'm Wood...that sounds sooo wrong |
[May. 27th, 2004|02:03 pm] |
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Well, it appears my actual chinese horoscope element matches the one from the quiz that Emily took. Here's the paragraph:
You are the chinese element of Wood. People who are under the element of wood are practical, focused and like to learn. Wood, you are a natural leader, but you also like to control a lot, you're never still and especially hate to lose. The color of wood is blue/green and your symbol is the dragon. Spring is the season in which wood shines, and it's months are January/February. Your weather condition is rain. Wood is the direction east, and your day is Thursday, while your planet is Jupiter. Animals under your element are usually scaled. People under you are the Mongols. Your sense is sight, your taste is sour, your sound is calling and your virtue is benevolence. Your organ is the liver. You were created by Water and you control Earth. |
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| Growing up |
[May. 20th, 2004|12:26 am] |
I think I can officially say that I am now a grown up. I've been one for years if you go by my age, and I'm sure that there are others out there that thought I was an adult prior to this. The issue here is that I finally feel that I've grown up. I wonder if this means that I can throw a coming of age party of sorts? That'd be pretty cool.
On an entirely different note, I got my hair done (a slightly guilty pleasure).
Back to the first paragraph, I also have mellowed out. I was extremely obsessive-compulsive (read anal) and ADD. I've learned what to let go and just go with the flow, and how to cope with my my channel surfing mind. I only hope others have learned to cope, or are willing to cope with the odd tangents I throw out from left field all to frequently.
Now I haven't posted my harem, yet. So many hotties, such a small number to choose from. I'll have to get back to that, hopefully soon. |
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| It's so slow.... |
[May. 18th, 2004|08:55 pm] |
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Work has been slow for the past couple of days. This leads to a bored katieya. Which is why I'm posting this at work. The cleaning of the house has been slow but steady. I hope to be able to actually have guests visit sometime this month.
I am going to A-Kon. Oddly enough I found all of my old con badges in the cleaning process. What was I thinking with the badge name of Babbit??? Could someone answer me this, please?
My brother and I had the long talk. It went well. I know he's lying to me about some stuff, but I think he does that as a reflex (sadly). He has agreed to the terms and he has a temp job lined up for the first week of June. He's running a volleyball workshop for about a week and a half. It pays about $1100. He has a good rep for coaching.
Bakudan has gotten in touch with me. We talked on Saturday. He called from the LA airport while waiting for his flight. We talked for a while. He got in touch with me this morning. We've tentatively scheduled a Denny's (maybe someplace else) dinner after I get off work on Friday.
I'm as clock-watching as I write this. I still have about a half hour left. I've already done everything that I could. I'll try to post more tonight. |
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| Mother's Day |
[May. 10th, 2004|10:52 am] |
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I love my mother. I love her very much...which is why she can usually get me to agree to do things that I don't want or like to do. Yesterday, was a pretty good example. I checked my voice mail on Saturday night and received a message from my mother saying that she wanted to go to the Lodge, in Blackhawk, for their lunch buffet (all you can eat crab legs!!!). I am to meet her at 4pm at her house. Sunday arrives and I am at my mother's house at 3:55pm. We(my parents, brother, and I) pile into my dad's car and set out for the 50 minute drive. We arrive and get in line for the buffet. We eat (lotsa food ^_^). We finish eating and my parents want to play nickel slots.
Now, I don't gamble. I don't like to gamble. I am in a town that is built for gamblers. My mother states that they are going to play for a little while. I find the cafeteria and sit and wait. I didn't bring anything to do because in my mother's message she only mentioned the buffet, so I wasn't expecting to be there for very long. (Maybe two and a half hours...) My parents played on those nickel slot machines from about 6pm to 1:30am. I sat at a cafeteria table bored out of my mind waiting to go home. The sad thing, my parents know that I don't gamble or even like it. I even ended up loaning them $80. The other issue is that I was the only one that had to work the following day and that I had things that I had to finish at home.
We hadn't eaten since the buffet, so we went to a Denny's. I finally got home at about 3:45am this morning. I took a shower to get rid of the smoke smell, and greeted my bed at 4:20am. I woke up at 8:30am.
That was Mother's Day for me. I am never going up to Blackhawk with my family ever again. How can someone sit at a slot machine for 7 1/2 hours?!?!
May I have a new family? Anyone adopting?
katieya |
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[May. 9th, 2004|12:17 am] |
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